its too tiring to be only january.

monday to fridays are hell.
lessons are too long and boring,
there is too much homework, to much to know, to complete.
and to handle all that inter-human relationship stuffs...
...too complicating for me please.
i like it simple.
insufficent sleep too.

and when i finally get to the weekends, it zooms by, and yay ! its monday again !
yuck.

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there are still many things i do not understand, and its not just school work.

some things are really too complicated.
its difficult too, to be in the middle of things.
too many problems coming up, and its only january.

everything's changing.
the environment,
the surroundings,
the people around you,
the friends.

i guess, i should learn to detach.
haha, new enlightenment from tuesdays with morrie.
"don't cling to things, because everything is impermanent."
marvellous.

like they say,
we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
how true. i guess we're supposed to be changing with our friends eh? lol.
i guess i'll just remain there, subtly, in the shadows.
and when they need me, they'll realise that i've always been there.
what's the use of attracting attention?
attention sucks.
we should learn from the stars. (;

integration awaits.