what to do, what to do ?

firstly, thank you to all those who wished me happy birthday ! (:

to val for breakfast,

the weather for the rain and massive flooding,

lunch with my family,

and peggy and yl for dinner. (:

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just a sudden though, with the release of the PSLE results.

for at least half of our life, we are brainwashed into thinking that the govt has the best policies and everything is picture perfect. or so it seems.

they convince us of the goodness of the policies implemented, ERP and whatnot, the goodness of the govt and what they have done for us.

and when we're all under the impression of this picture perfect life, we enter real life, and wonder wtf happened to the supposedly best policies.

and then we realise that all along, it wasn't that picture perfect after all.

the education system, just how good is it ?

for people like my brother, who are the cream of the crop, sg has a lot to offer.

internships, places in prestigious schools, scholarships, future job prospects, whether local or overseas.

BUT.

what about those like me or my other siblings, who are not so lucky academically ? what paths have we got to choose ? or do we not have a choice ?

to make matters worse, the influx of foreign talents that the govt is encouraging. as mentioned, they are foreign talents. what chance do we have against them ?

can't get into local uni ? go overseas lor.

no money to go ? find money lor.

just what other choice do we have here, i really don't know. looking at the situation, it seems really rather bleak. hitting dead ends everywhere.

no doubt, its good here. you may be a science students, but you can take arts subjects too. i like it that way, just so that i can escape from sciences for a while. BUT. i don't have the chance to experience that. sad, but true.

RIGHT. enough pondering about bleak stuff. though i really have no idea how my younger brother is going to go through this.

what options does this country have to offer to students like him ? feeling rather worried now, but there doesn't seem to be anything i can do about it. i don't even know where i can go from here, and i am much better off than him academically.

sigh. wonder why small kids always dream of growing up, being 21.

what picture perfect world lah, like shit.

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gokusen ! (:

though i'm not a fan of KT, kame is hot. and Night from Absolute Boyfriend too, plus Oguri Shun and a lot of others whose names i cannot remember at all.

sad that there's no sawada shin lah. oh wells :/

"We fight to protect the people and things we cherish." (: -Yankumi

and 2012 is nice !

i was intrigued by polar reversals and tectonic plate movements when i was studying plate tectonics in j1, and i am still intrigued by it now. though the one in 2012 is rather exaggerating(20+ degrees shift in a few mins leh), it is still amazing.

though i would like the world leaders to tell me (when they find out) when exactly the world is going to end. i don't want to see the giant wave crashing upon me, or the huge crack in the ground and realise its the end of the world.

at least let me enjoy first, please.

and i think mass prayers are actually rather moving. the sight of thousands congregating and putting their faith in religion (though at time it wouldn't help anyway), hmmm not bad (:

"The moment we stop fighting for each other is the moment we lose all humanity."

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so many things to think about, i don't know which way to push my brain to.

argh, my brother should just share his brain cells with me already lah. :/

i'm going off to make friends with differentiation for the third time !