if its not hot, its not Singapore

you know how some people always seem like they're sailing through everything in life ? everything just seems to go smoothly, everything turns out alright, and it just seems so effortless for them.

i think i used to be like that. not that i was exceptionally good or anything, but everything had this way of turning out ok in the end, and i didnt feel like i put in enough effort.
attribute it to luck, talent or whatever you want. think i ran out of whatever it was that was pushing me forward while i floated.
i ran out of it a few years ago, and while i flailed my arms and tried to keep afloat, i realised i never learnt to swim. i guess in the few years since, i've learnt to swim, and am now cast into the sea, subject to the waves. who knows where that'll bring me ?

but what i really want to say is, i'm really thankful for what i have.
its funny how when you're cast into a new environment and meet new people, listen and learn about their lives before you'd known them. and knowing how much more they had than me - if you talk about money, travel experience and powerful connections - actually made me really glad that i had what i had when i was growing up. needless to say, i was - and still am - appalled at the way they live. its just so extravagant, and so drama-like its a little difficult to comprehend.
do i envy them, for their lack of financial concerns ?
to an extent, yes, but then again, not really.

on to other things, its back to being cold here again ! i have no idea why, it was nice and warm last week ! and summer is supposed to be coming, so temperatures really shouldnt be in the low 10s anymore ! tskkk.
but i kinda like this weather, to a certain extent. you dont perspire much, and i guess that's nice. though not good for the body, hahaha.

had nasi lemak today ! home cooked, with curry made from scratch YUMMM. i fried the egg and vegetables, and YES THEY ARE EDIBLE. though the egg was a little burnt i think, ahhahaha.

like i said before(i think), im getting used to it over here. not just going to school and all, but living alone, and washing my own clothes and cooking my own dinner. all mundane stuff, but yeahh. plus work is piling up, i have 20 maths lectures to clear, 10 lectures of chem and bio each so yeah, i guess that's what's pushing me forward. the schedule makes everything move so fast, and its like all of a sudden, i've already been here for more than a month ! so super fast, it still feels like a dream, like i'll wake up anytime and find myself in Singapore. hahaha !
but yeah, a presentation on wednesday, and a group report to do. talking to my brother helps, and it re-illustrates the brilliance i never was. but it helps clear my mind, and all of a sudden im not so confused over the article anymore ! (:

anyway, ive always been meaning to take a photo of the place im living at, as in the outside. but, i haven't done it yet, so please don't kill me ! hahaha.