east and west

whats worse than one oboe with bad intonation?
two oboes with bad intonation.

didnt go for band today, cos i left the scores at home...
so i decided to just go for gz...
it is quite fun actually, cos im learning something new also...
and reading numbers instead of 'tau gei's' is something im not familiar with also.. haha.

BUT
i feel guilty.
very guilty, in fact.
its like, i appeared in band as an oboe player,
then sort of like give them hope.
then i just stopped going for practices...
and dash their hope?

im not sure whether to join band or not, even if its just for syf.
even now, i cant really cope with chem and maths.
imagine the amount of time i have to put in to practice my pieces !
i think i can just fail and retain in j1.

but if i dont go, not will my achievements be practically blank,
i will feel uneasy.
i cant explain it, but i will just feel uneasy.
weird, i know.

*sigh*
i hate choosing ccas. argh.

well, i guess i should just go for band on sat first...
then we'll take it from there.
meanwhile, i think i'll join gz and learn smth new.
lol.

on a brighter note, there's good friday to look forward to !
BUT, there's truckloads of homework.
what's the point of the holiday then ?

oh well.
i cut my hair !
haha. (=