5 years of commitment.
all the hard work i put in.
the hours i spent there.
the stuff i sacrificed.

i dunno.
everything else i guess.
everything i did for the band in the past 5 years.
was i just so insignificant?
or is it that i am so useless and irresponsible,
that i dont even deserve a good grade.

yeah, i know im a horrible player.
i contribute to the noise and horrible intonation of the band.
i cant seem to play properly,
or just come out at the right time.
i spoil the music and all.

but hey,
i didnt skip practices.
i practiced.
i worked.
i neglected my studies in sec 4 for syf.
i practiced everyday.
i tried hard.
even for that horrible sound,
im sure i contributed.
even a tiny, weeny bit.

but maybe i just deserved it.
im just not good enough,
or responsible enough,
or influential enough.
im probably invinsible.
constantly forgotten, constantly left out.
always the last on the list,
and never the first.
i grew up eating glass.
its my favourite food.
thats why you all see through me.
now i know.
i really know.
and i understand.
i spent 5 years working hard for the band to get a B3 for cca.



"emmaline lai. symphonic band. B3."

thankyouverymuch.
im so proud of myself.
thank you for the second B3.
you know how much i love them yah.


five years wasted just like that.
i guess i was just stupid.
to waste my time getting a stupid B3.