thanks to shan, pris, zh and yiying.
hahaha.
shan, i will go look for her after prelims.
i think.

dnt folio deadline tml.
im DEAD.

amaths paper 2 on monday was okay.
i know at least secure 4 marks le.
hahaha.
compared to today's paper 1............
i think i can manage a nice big fat red zero.
sians.
and i still aim C6.
SIANS.

so its down to chem and physics tml.
so...
there goes my amaths.
and my humans.
and english.
i hope science survives.

i was stuck outside the house today.
second time le.
unexpectedly, i went home early.
then no one at home.
end up i sit at the steps.
hahaha
but, my grandmother got discharged from hospital!
which is very good!

so, now first 3 mths is out for me.
guess i'll do meaningful stuffs during the holiday bah.

i really really dunno if i should go jc or poly.
even in poly,
i dunno what course i should take.
i know the decision i make now will ultimately affect my whole life,
my whole future.
right now, there's no right or wrong decision.
but later on,
after i've made my decison,
i'll feel the impacts.

i wanna do something that will help people,
something that will touch others lives.
if i can, i wanna be a doctor.
then can volunteer to help ppl in the third world countries,
at the same time experience how its like there.

i guess, living in a modern country in singapore,
we are always protected.
its always sort of safe and secure here,
and wherever we go, we can find food.
we have so much food that we waste it,
while they eat soil, grass and even tree bark.
in other places,
they walk for miles just to get a drop of water,
and its not even clean.
for us, we just twist the tap, and voila.
clean running water for us to use, sometimes to the extent of wasting.

we really dunno what we have now right?
we just mai yuan and complain about trival stuff,
while we completely forget to treasure what we have.
compared to those in war-struck and third countries,
we're damn damn lucky.

yeah, so a doctor's good.
can save lives, and help ppl.
but then i have to go to uni, and before that, jc is better.
poly kinda difficult to go to uni,
unless you're damn good, and can shine through.
but throughout my life, i've never shone.
im just tucked away, behind the others.
easily forgotten, easily missed.

but some courses in poly are also very attractive ya.
like i dunno.
tourism and hospitality?
or chemical engineering.
or some dna thingy.
or marine biology?

there's a lot a lot of choices,
and im attracted by all of them.
i cant make up my mind.
hahaha.
i can never make up my mind.
hahaha.


oh well,
more on choosing courses later.
its time for chem, physics and dnt.
not a fantastic combination,
but i haven't got a choice.