in 8 weeks

in 8 weeks, i will have...

-finished my revision for A levels at least once.
-mastered all the topics for all subjects, including those in j1.
-finished the chem tys.
-finished the maths tys.
-finished doing the 2007 maths school prelim papers.
-finished the extra maths questions.
-finished the chem prelim revision book1.
-finished chem prelim revision book 2.
-to start continue revising for A levels.
-set my goals for prelims, and be confident about achieving it.
-given it my best shot, and done all that needs to be done.
-done my work, consulted my tutors, cleared my doubts.
-understood all the chem and maths which im unable to do now.
-i will be ready to pass my subjects.

in 8 weeks, im sitting for the A level PRELIMS.
in 8 weeks, i will NOT fail all the subjects im taking.

help me please, someone.
just help me.

monday, mdm saadiah asked us how badly we wanted to go to university, and how hard we are prepared to work for it.
all the teachers basically said the same stuffs lah, revolving around the same objective.
to motivate us, get us to work harder and harder and harder.
so how badly do i want to go to university ?
with my current grades, im definitely not eligible to APPLY even.
seriously, which subject have i even passed?
none.
its quite a horrific thought you know, that with only 4 months to the actual thing, im not passing anything.
worse still, my U's are in the bottom range.
marvellous.

didnt go school on wednesday and thursday...
sudden bout of sickness, unexpected and uncalled for.
oh wells, at least its not during the exams right?
its not nice to miss school during this time also, haha.
but 3 days of mc.... its been a long time since i was given such breaks. haha.
hope i didnt miss out too much !
lagging behind enough alr, cannot make it worse !
i should be able to go to school tomorrow, im strong !
(contrary to what eunice thinks...)yes, im strong !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FANGLIN !
couldn't wish you in person, cos i wasn't in school.
hope you enjoy being 18 ! (:

i think yesterday was ljk's birthday...
and though you most probably wont see this...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SLASH !
hope you enjoy being 19!
hope i got the day right, too !
miss comparing results with you lah, competing to see who gets lower grades.
especially for A maths, which i usually win.
now that my grades are so low, i think this time i sure win you de lah !

emmalinelaiyoubettergetyourbuttup,pullupyoursocksanddosomethingaboutthisbeforeitstoolate.
YOU CAN'T HOLD ON TO REGRETS.