helicodal flow

friday, 27.06.08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WENYI !
hahahaa, my dear pig, you're 19 ! (:
celebrated her birthday on sunday, BBQ (:
her nephews are super cute, and so is her neice. ((:

monday...30.06.08
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAHUI !
my oboe playing-hole in the ground song singing-nonsense talking-door holding band partner !
haha, for being the only other person playing the same instrument as me,
and the only other one who knows what its like to be forgotten by the band. (hmph)
and the scary solos composers are so fond of.
hahaha, i know you wont see this lah, but
18 alr, must grow up le kay !
stop tailing me around the school !!! HAHA

and also...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERLIN !
haha, dunno you well, just that you sit in the first row too !
hahaha, happy 18th ! (you wont see it too, but i need to see this 10 years later and remember you !) HAHA.

came back early on tues, didnt go to school on wed.
hahaha, and now, its thursday.
its already 2nd week of school, 7 weeks to prelims !
ohmygosh, what the hell am i doing???

and i ran the 4km for the trial run today. hahaha.
thank you yanling, for running with me !
hahaha, though i very slow. and she kept telling me i was not supposed to run, cos still on mc.
oops =x

friday tomorrow. and then another week gone.
sigh.

my mind is like a helicodal flow now, spiralling and spiralling and spiralling.
thoughts here and there, everywhere.
what to do?
life is too damn freaking confusing.

whatever ~
exams first, all these later.
i've tried so damn hard, for the whole first half of the year.
thank you, for teaching me that you cant trust just anyone.
thank you, for teaching me that people can just turn their back on you.
i will remember all this, i promise.
i'm too freaking tired now to care.
i want to trust, to believe.
but i dont dare to. how can i, after all this??

-

okay, i took the test. HAHA.
(no val, not your influence. its yanling's. heh.)

took both, see which more true.
the introverted..



Sensitive Doers are gentle, modest and reserved persons. They cope well with everyday life and like their privacy. With their quiet, optimistic nature, they are also good, sought-after listeners and other people feel well in their company. All in all, this type is the most likeable and friendliest of all personality types. Tolerance and heir regard for others distinguish their personality. They are very caring, generous and always willing to help. They are open to and interested in everything that is new or unknown to them. However, if their inner value system or their sense of justice is hurt, Sensitive Doers can suddenly and surprisingly become forceful and assertive.

Sensitive Doers enjoy the comforts life offers to the full. They are very happy in everyday life. Sensitive Doers are often gifted artists or very good craftsmen. Creativity, imagination and an especially keen perception are just a few of their strong points. Sensitive Doers are very presence-oriented; long-term planning and preparations do not appeal to them. They take life as it comes and react flexibly to daily demands. They do not like too much routine and predictability. Their talents come more to the fore when work processes are variable and there are not so many rules. Sensitive Doers like to work alone; if they are part of a team, they do not get involved in competitive or power games and prefer living and working together harmoniously and openly.

Sensitive Doers are completely satisfied with a small, close circle of friends as their need for social contacts is not very marked. Here, too, they avoid conflicts - quarrels and disputes put considerable strain on them. Sensitive Doers are often very fond of animals and are very good with small children. As partner, this type is loyal and reliable and is willing to invest a lot in a relationship. Mutual respect and tolerance are very important to Sensitive Doers. Their love of pleasure makes them a pleasant companion with whom one can experience intensive moments. They like to look after their partner with attentiveness and small gifts and are very sensitive to the partner’s needs - often more than to their own. However, should they meet the wrong person, they run the risk of being taken advantage of. They are then deeply disappointed.

Adjectives which describe your type
introverted, practical, emotional, spontaneous, sensitive, peace-loving, reserved, gentle, good-natured, independent, empathetic, friendly, playful, carefree, sympathetic, relaxed, quiet, modest, pleasure-loving, loyal, obliging, caring, helpful, optimistic


These subjects could interest you
art, music, craftwork, garden work, animals, nature, literature, drawing/painting, astrology, spiritual things, meditation, music, handicrafts, writing

rather true, i guess.
i absolutely detest conflicts.
period.

and for the extroverted one...



Laid-back Doers are friendly, happy persons. They enjoy being together with other people. Smart, eloquent, witty and charming, they like to be the centre of attraction. They do not like to be alone. Their zest for life ensures that others feel well in their company and that they quickly get to know people. Laid-back Doers get the best out of every moment - many people of this type have a gift for making their whole life one big party. Boredom is unknown in their presence because they are very good at carrying others away with their enthusiasm, their good mood and their optimism.

Abstract thinking and profound philosophising about the meaning of life appeal less to Laid-back Doers. They are pragmatic, realistic and live completely in the here and now. At work too, they prefer it when it’s all go and they can act out their purposeful manner to the full. They have no problem handling several tasks at once and they blossom out in crisis situations! A varied field of activity with a lot of social contacts is just the right thing for them. One will also seldom find them inactive in their spare time; due to their open, curious nature, they mostly have many hobbies and interests. They are not afraid of the unknown: as they are flexible and creative, they quickly adjust to new situations and make the best of them. They sometimes come into conflict with strict rules or hierarchies by which they quickly feel constrained and against which they rebel.

As friends, Laid-back Doers are generous, helpful persons who attach great importance to harmonious relationships and a good atmosphere. Their sociable manner means that they have a large circle of friends and they love having the house full of many different types of guests. They are happy to give in to their spontaneous moods and fancies in the just one or two important things. This makes them appear somewhat unpredictable to those with a quieter nature. When it really matters, you can rely on them one hundred percent. As partners, they are creative, impetuous and imaginative - as long as their partner knows how to fascinate them. They can hardly stand boredom or routine in a relationship. They do not like conflicts at all; if a relationship becomes too strenuous or involves too much effort, they tend to withdraw from the partnership and start to look for a new partner. However, if one manages to keep their curiosity alive in the long term and surprise them again and again, one has a loyal and loving partner.

Adjectives which describe your type
extroverted, practical, emotional, spontaneous, enthusiastic, friendly, playful, lively, talkative, nonchalant, tolerant, happy, pleasant, generous, flexible, wily, attractive, relationship-oriented, generous, adventurous, fun-loving, creative, helpful, action-loving, casual, sociable, open, sensitive, touchy, erratic, curious, noncommittal, action-loving


These subjects could interest you
going out, dancing, parties, cinema, eating out, sport and travel (club holidays), music, trekking, camping, hiking, cooking, handicrafts, nature

again, i detest conflicts.
hahaha.
but quite a few contradictions? hahahaa.
i think more of the introverted type ba, you think?
(: